but what i find out today almost made me cry in front of tiffany. I swore to myself you would never affect me like that again... i really don't understand how people think your so irresistible...
yeah your nice, your cute, you listen, you care like no one ever will...
but still...
you make me so miserable... I never thought you would make me feel like this again...
i'm so frustrated with you i can't think, i can't eat, i can't sleep...
all i wanna do is run away, make myself to your liking... change up my ways... just so you can look at me like you used to...
love me the same way you used to...
be with me 24/7 just like before; inseparable like magnets... attracted to each other and no one else...
these past 4 days... i hella think about you but at the same time (especially from today) i just dont wanna see you at all...
i always text you, think about you... wonder what you're doing... wonder if you're thinking of me too...
god. what did i do to be treated like this?
im putting my heart out on my sleeve for you to take again...
do you know how much im scared? that you'll do what your doing now?
how much im sacrificing for you?
im giving you a second chance...
of all the shit you put me through... im giving you a second chance..
but do you even want it? if you dont want it then why the hell did you treat me the way you did?
YOU made me feel like this again. YOU made me feel like we were getting back together. YOU made me think the only thing i had to worry about or convince you of was that you wouldn't hurt me again. YOU are the one thats fuckin with my dam emotions.
you cant even decide if we're together... if we're talking...
STOP.LEADING.ME.ON. tell me where the fuck we stand?
dont waste my time if all your doing is keeping me around just in case you run out of people to talk to just because you know i'll be there.
UGH. i can't wait forever kevin...
it's killing me right now just writing this...
you make me so insecure....
chad & audrina are fuckin doin better than we are.
haha. it's so pathetic as much as that skank hates me...
it's just so funny...
well i guess since their still in love.
and your feelin a lot for some lust.
i guess text me when you find out wtf is goin on between us.
im done trying. im not gonna text you, or talk to you...
in a week... i swear to janine... if you dont talk to me by next fucking sunday... to tell me anything i swear im gonna drive done to where the hell you are, slap you hella hard in the face and fucking yell the fuck outta you.
im not playin.
if you wanna talk to me then you can, dont talk to me because im making you feel bad. i dont need your pity.
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