diamond in the rough...

went to physical therapy today! hella awesome.

my hand smells like cilantro though... thought id let you know.

hella in a better mood after my doctors appt.

ok so he asked me how i was & i was like

"my shoulder or just life?"
"your shoulder..."
"it's good"
"ok, now what about life?"
"well, schools easy i just gotta raise up my grade for one class it's shouldn't be that bad. but my love life... it's not cool"
"your love life? you don't need one your 19!"
"yeah i know but still i've been single for awhile"

and so i told him about tony kinda. and how when i talk to someone i just get to know them to see if i wanna be with them and he was like

"you shouldn't do it that way. let me ask you a question, and you don't have to answer it just yet... what are the qualities you want in the opposite sex? don't answer it just yet just think about it"

then he said
"look at it this way, when you know what you want... you look for those qualities in a man. don't settle for less, you wouldn't settle for second best right? it's like choosing a diamond. diamonds have no flaws. if you had to choose from zirconia & a diamond. what would you choose? you wouldn't choose a zirconia, zirconias are found all over the place, you can always replace them, but if you pick a diamond... you'll have it forever. so try to find that diamond in the rough, don't settle for less than that"

DAM. hella opened my eyes about things! i mean i have standards for guys but him. he had two specific things he wanted in his woman. she had to be christian & get along with his family hella good. this girl he dated was a different race & he just couldn't do that & then this other girl just got along with his family ok. so he couldn't do that either, he found a girl that had both. i was like dammmm nigga!

i was like if your picky you won't really get anything. i guess i'll let a few things slide but the big parts that are important to me, they'll stick. freals.

so ima make a list. just not now cas im hungry.

ANYWAY.
parents suck!

"i'll drop that mother fucker!!!"

mmm tony called me today, but my mom was using the phone so i didn't get to pick up & then when i called back he didn't answer & i texted him but he never texted me back.

freals. i hate this dumbass game.

if you fucking wanna be with me, don't just tell me... SHOW ME you really want me to be what you say. if it's real... you'd try at least. i've been trying. so don't FUCK WITH MY EMOTIONS. i've been fucked over so many times. i dont deserve to be played anymore. ive been through this shit before. im ready for a real man. so step up your game nigga! & get on my level

i'm done with these games.

so either try, or just step off. cas i'm not playin no more.