it's obvious it hurts; im the one who's closet to your ♥

can we go back?

hhhh. 

hella days ago i was gna write about this, but i never got the chance to.

had a heart felt hug & cry with my madre

then i had one with my brother. it was weird & awkward at the same time. but it felt good somehow. all because one man... & stupid fat ass liar that needs to die; alone. cas im not answering his phone calls anymore. 

YOURE NO LONGER PART OF MY LIFE. SO STOP TRYING TO BE SOMEONE YOUVE NEVER BEEN.

you should've gotten your forgiveness hella long ago. theres no use trying now because i know nothing in your fucked up mind will change.

besideeees thaaaaat.

lifes tough getta helmet.

im finally getting to where i want to be. just a few more weeks... you'll all seee.

i kinda miss....

some people that i haven't heard from in hella long.

i mean, it was cool being friends with you til you didn't tell me about all that shit about you know who... i mean if you told me, i woulda been mad you know that, but still i woulda respected you for telling me & dealt with it as much possible as i could. /: you were a almost solid ass bitch, but what do i know right?

hella of my 'friends' dont even talk to me anymore. but it's probably my fault cas i don't hang. then again, they dont invite me anywhere & then again, i never really go.

my lifes fucked in the friendship section, somewhat.

but at least now i know who's gonna be there for me no matter what, even if we dont hang or don't really talk. they'll always be there to calm my ass down.

fuck love relationships, i want something specific & im not settling for less, so if he never emerges; so be it.

i just hate being the last to know things. why can't people just be straight up & just tell me shit to my face, even if it hurts me. id rather know & be hurt than to not know & be happy.

): i hate liars&fakes.

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such a terrible dream, such a terrible thing

waking up at 4am. 

such a terrible dream to dream about.

i started crying. it felt so real... i never want them to talk again. i never wanna hear those words again.

such a terrible dream terrible terrible dream.