you'll never see me again, so now who's gonna cry for you?

went to the candyshoppp!!

soooo.

went to school, went to lab for like almost 2 hours. with nothing to do so i played with my ipod. then as i was leaving i seen pao! & francis! i was talking to them for a quick minute and i seen alex too, but i didn't say hi because i was talking. ): sorry

then went home & just chilled. at some cheese it chex mix thing. it was hella good. & i watched "Bed Time Stories" it was hellof funny! and cuteee

then got picked up by jenny's mom. went to her house & started gettting ready for the clubbb. we stayed in her bathroom like the whole entire time. but we left hella late cas joelles aunty got stuck in tracy.

then joelle, jordan, jenny & i went to go pick up justin.

"why's it so quiet here?"
"do you feel awkward justin?"
"yeah i do..."
"then talk.."

we drank pomoson... i think that's how you spell it.. idk
then hella honey coated blunts.

it was like an 8th?
idk

then we finally got to club, took hella long to get in. i saw leeann but i got hella lost going back into the line... haha!
-_- hella embarrassing.

then i found audrina & chad when we went to the bathroom.
soo then we went upstairs and danced
hella humidity.... my hair was curly when i got there & 20 minutes later, it got all flat & i put hairspray too!!
faiiil.
then danced hella.
some asian guy tried to feel me up that fucker. probably thought i was hella faded, bitch! i wasn't. made me hella mad. i wanted to punch him in the face.

OMG! random people there!
like anthony
& that guy from at&t i think is cute. haha. he looks better in his uniform tho. haha!

it was kinda fun.

i think its funner when i'm either just drinking and not dancing. or if i have someone to dance with.

i hate dancing with random people... i feel weird. haha oh weeeellll

life isn't fair.

you see all these couples with hella problems, but they work it out because they love each other or their just scared to leave them because their so used to that person. i have no clue what im doing wrong. i can't even get my ex boyfriend to come hang out with me & i can't even get the guy who says i'm his 'wifey' to have a conversation with me.

well fuck. im fucked.

gaaah. whatever i dont care anymore. it's too frustrating /:

whatevs. im done.

can you tell me where did he go? but i dont want no other girl to get that...

"You can spend minutes,hours,days,weeks,or maybe even months over analyzing a situation;trying to put the pieces together ,justifying what would've,could've happened ...or you could just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on." - tupac

haha hella laughed when i seen that.

mmm im feelin emotional! i got my period tdy after pe. hella gay!!!!

it's cool tho.

i gotta figure out how you stole my heart... i'm loosing grip what's happening?

beeen awhile.

grandparents are back from the flip side! yay!
they been gone since my birthday ): that was a sad excuse of a day. soo many let downs. but is all good. this year my birthday will be perfect. just a simple dinner with the people i talk to the most. which is like down to 2 people who aren't related to me
-_- dam. homegirl needs more close friends. OH! unless xye, kristen & noelle go (:

today. i was in the exact place where i lost something with someone special. and at that moment while i watched the tv, your face was infront of mine & i swear our relationship passed through my head like when someone's life flashes through your head... i saw your face, the way you looked at me during most nights. they way you laughed when i sang and danced to that white chicks songs, haha good times. i even got to talk to you for a bit. which was cool. except you had no interest in talking to me. i still get jealous over you. like you're still my keke. i feel like ive been living in denial for the past 3 years of my life without you. gaaah. the only guy id drop everything for. not even danny. fuck man. i just wish you'd try to be my friend at least. for all the shit i've done for you & the shit you've put me through... you could at least be my friend.

sometimes imy lots. /:

gaaah. i was hella tired & now i'm just thinking. but there's nothing to think about.
kevin, tony, club.

kevin - doesn't even wanna have anything to do with me. it seems. idk if your mad at me or if you just dont wanna deal with me cas my mom. which is such a fucked up reason to just completely stop hanging out with me. esp when i was on my period. it makes me think you didn't stick around because we couldn't have sex anymore... haaahaaa!

what is with men & sex & relationships? rather yet. why is it that a guy only pays attention to his girlfriend when it's a sexual conversation?

maybe i'm just going for the wrong guys...

i just wanna know if you still care about me at least... if you dont love me anymore, then that's fine. sad but at least id let you go. & i wonder if we're still gonna get married when i turn 23. lemmeknow.

tony - doesn't even text me, call me, all he says is O. but i'm not even trippin off it. cas i'm still waiting for that proof baby. not even gonna apologize to my stepdad. how can you first say you are & then tell him to come to you? wtf is that. you said sorry to my mom. what's the difference in saying sorry to my stepdad? freal. grow up.

apologies are everywhere. they'll always be given and taken seriously, so idk what's so hard about doing that...

club - hella excited!!

going with:

jenn & joelle
drina & chad
enoch & jordan
& mee.

i hope it's crackin. i dont even care if the club has good music im gonna have fun! in my yellow bee dress. haha!
i hope i have monies though. i need at least 30 for food. fuckk
but yeah....

um ok over being sad!!

i still want my stars & rockets eyeshadow. ):